'If Tonight is My Last'

Alright, well this is my first blog about song lyrics.  I heard this song on my favorite show, One Tree Hill, last night and I have pretty much been listening to it since then.  It is nice to listen to, the singer is amazing!, and also I love the lyrics to it!  I have recently been going through a hard time in my life pertaining to relationships.  I'm not complaining because pretty much I brought it upon myself, but I am just sick of being confused and not knowing what to do.  I have been doing a lot of thinking...well actually thinking is ALL I seem to be doing lately.  And it's kind of nice that I came across this song because it pretty much does the talking for me and says what I want. 
If Tonight is My Last- Laura Izibor

If an angel came down to me, asked what I would do differently
I would say nothing, you see, I love someone truly
And if I do not see tomorrow, you know it's gonna be alright
'Cause I got my baby right by my side
--This section pretty much tells everything I want and want to feel in just four lines.  I want that feeling of loving someone so much and feeling so deeply for them that they are the only person I ever thinking about and only want to think about forever!!  

And if the rain ain't falling and the sun ain't shining
It makes no difference to me I'm right where I wanna be
--I want that giddy/happy feeling that no matter what is thrown at me or what obstacles I face I know I can handle them with grace because I have that special person by my side.  Someone that can cheer me up no matter what is going.

And if tonight is my last what I gotta do?
And if tonight is my last I wanna spend it with you
And if the sky fall's down it's gonna be alright
'Cause I got you here tonight

If I had to give all that I own
In return for the love that's grown
I would give it gladly 'cause nothing else compares
To the moments that we shared
--This is exactly how I feel right now.  I want something so badly that I am willing to give everything I have, because I know that past moments have meant so much and have stuck with me for a reason.  I know it can work under the right circumstances...just have to find them!

And if the rain ain't falling and the sun ain't shining
It makes no difference to me I'm right where I wanna be

And if tonight is my last what I gotta do?
And if tonight is my last I wanna spend it with you
And if the sky fall's down it's gonna be alright
'Cause I got you here tonight

Only given a short time on this earth
You gotta make each moment worth something beautiful
You gotta give every bit of you for the love
Half just won't do
-- This is how I am trying to live.  I realize I am only 20 years old, and hopefully have a lot more time to live, but you never know what will happen.  Gotta live every moment to the fullest and live with no regrets.  Do what makes you happy no matter what and no matter what other people say.  If you don't follow your heart you will regret it forever.  There is a reason your heart is telling you to do something, don't ignore it.  In order to find the love or other things you want you have to take the chance of being hurt and put EVERYTHING you have out there and take those chances.  Might be hard to do and you might end up hurt but I'm fighting for what I want and I realize it could majorly backfire.  I am scared to death right now but I am following my heart.  I just hope it ends in what I am trying to find.  If it doesn't....then I guess I start over. 

And if tonight is my last what I gotta do?
And if tonight is my last I wanna spend it with you
And if the sky fall's down it's gonna be alright
'Cause I got you here tonight

"All is good in the end, if it is not good...then it is not the end!!"

TTFN!!!